trust

when all else fails only i’ll remain.
again and again and again and again…
right here where i’ve stood, split-lipped just the same.

i tried to shrink my heart for you.
wore it thin wore it thin wore it thin wore it thin…
but i’m weak now, so cold, out here on this limb.

i tried turning the page but it all reads the same.
who’s to blame who’s to blame who’s to blame who’s to blame…
same bloody history. i see both of our names.


where’s the harness i’ve been blessed with?
at home, far away.
it kept me still, snagged my running,
but safe, there to stay.
narrowed eyes focused lightly on the truth,
always there.
every word like a root, meant deep,
always bare.


i will trust.
because i must.
it’s the only way I can.
i will survive it.
i will deny it.
but i may have to leave again.